I think that The Ontario Breast Screening Program is a wonderful program and so, being somewhat high risk, I respond to my annual reminders readily. I was taken somewhat aback recently when both my family doctor and the Program said I needed to return for an additional mammogram.
On the day of my appointment when my husband asked if I was concerned, I gave my Reiki Principle, “Do not worry.” response in all honesty.
The nurses and technicians at the clinic assured me that the call back was just a precaution and that in all likelihood there was no cause for concern. The actual mammogram was rather more intense than the initial one and left me a bit breathless. I was then informed that I would also have an ultra sound. That procedure was unexpected, but I just marched myself off to the appropriate room and submitted to instruction.
The nurse said she wanted the doctor to have look at the results, so I would have to wait a few minutes for her to come. Lying on the bed, cold and half exposed, I suddenly had a flutter of concern. I decided to have a few meditative minutes to calm myself. When I closed my eyes all was black, black, black. Where was the gold and violet light I usually experience when meditating?
Suddenly, it came to me that I had not “Reikied-Up” before entering the hospital – even before leaving the house. I guess, I was more pre-occupied than I thought about the procedure.
Promptly, I centered myself, drew my symbols, and started to call up the light. It took a while, but eventually I could feel the Reiki warmth entering and calming my body and mind.
The doctor arrived shortly after, did a few passes with the ultra sound wand, give me the all clear, and sent me on my way.
I was, of course, relieved, but chastened. Not about my physical well-being, but how I had neglected my emotional and spiritual well-being. I think that the blackness of my initial attempt at meditation was a reflection of the very nature of the hospital – a place of healing, but also a place of dis-ease and unfortunately death. I learned a valuable lesson that day. We must always protect ourselves from darkness and by doing so, we can bring light to darkness.